Change

It is always so difficult to report nothing. 192.5.  But that is reality. Especially if you don't make any changes.

Yesterday I just floated along, no exercise, no big changes to eating. The results show it. No change. Hmm, have to change to have change. What a concept!

One of my daughters is on her own journey. She has lost over 20 pounds and is closing in on my weight. Annoying since she started just a couple months ago. And exciting since I want her to pass me, but I want that when I am making progress!

A good friend of mine lost her mother yesterday after many years of battling with cancer. Her mom lived with her and was a huge part of her life. She was not old. Cancer took it's toll, but she was not old.

My friend knew it was time for her mom to go home, for the suffering to end. She has a huge hole in her life, one that will be painful for the rest of her life.

What a blessing to love someone so much that you miss them so much. Odd way to look at it I know. I guess it is my way of welcoming the pain and putting a use to it.

My father died just before my 11th birthday. He was killed in an accident, 37 years old. The world would call him my step father. Wrong, he was and is my father. That was nearly 44 years ago. He inspires me and is missed greatly still to this day. I am so glad.

My "real" father died a few years ago. I don't even remember the date. I cried when I found out, months after he died. I cried not because of him, but because of what was missed. I cried because there was no reason to cry. He had many children. None that I am aware of mourn his death. None miss him. He left destruction in every life he touched. He is not missed.

I am so grateful for the pain of the loss of my father. I am so grateful that I knew that love. He is missed by many and all of his children.

Now I ask you, what man caused the most pain? Which man would you want in your life?

Who will mourn you when you leave?

What a blessing to be such a good person that you would be missed. What a blessing to know and have in your life people that you miss. Thank you Lord for this pain, Thank you for giving me such people in my life that I understand it.

I have to add this final thought. People that are loved never leave. I hear my fathers sayings still to this day. When I am with my siblings we always bring up what he would say or think in different situations. My father-in-law passed away 4 years ago. I had him longer than my father. He is so missed. But nearly daily things will come up that either my husband or I will bring up what dad would say! He is still with us.

Now go hug someone.