Step by step

216 today. Little by little, step by step.

The big news is how we are changing in our thinking. There have been several times in the last two weeks that in the past, I would have binged into things real big. Instead, I have looked for something to chew on that was less damaging, carrots, fruit, lots of water.

When I have been in the store and habit would have be pick up a candy bar or circus animal cookies (a favorite), I would think, "no, I want only healthy things for myself". Now that is HUGE! Because I did NOT say "I can't have that". One is being deprived, the other is making a good choice!!!!!

Ron and I are doing this together. Not impossible to do it alone. But it really helps to have someone on the same path, same mind set. When he said he would not mind ice cream. I said, no, not what we are doing, you don't really want it do you? And he did not. When we went to see a movie yesterday and I asked if he wanted popcorn, because I did, he did the same, No, you don't really want it do you? And no, for a second, a very dangerous second, yes, but long term, absolutely not!

The rewards have been surprising and most welcome. I can't even remember what I was back up to. Being down, feels good. Not been hungry or grouchy because I am on a restricted diet once. In fact, I am feeling better every day. Having more energy and have been emerging from the dark cloud of minor depression.

Ron was up to 255. He is down to 241 today!!!! Yesterday was the best day physically and mentally that he has had in many months. And I do believe that eating correctly and dropping the weight is a big part of it.

I firmly believe that making this change, losing weight and becoming healthy, is a very personal thing. No one can force you to do it. If you are like me, you don't really think it can happen. Once you decide, even without support, you CAN do it! It is all inside of you (me).

I took a training called "Bold". It was to improve not only your business, but your life. It has been the single most productive thing I have ever done. One thing they told us about is our negative "self talk". They gave it a name, likely one others have used. Called it "your drunk monkey". It is your drunk monkey on your shoulder telling you you can't, you don't deserve it, it will never work. Swat that feller off your shoulder! I still find mine climbing back up and whispering, sometimes yelling in my ear. Why would I listen to a monkey, let alone a drunk monkey and let it control my life? Why would you???

Some people have someone in their lives who is a drunk monkey, full grown, living, breathing and so destructive. I did. I promise you this person had no idea what they were doing. Would swear I was wrong. That person is not in my life anymore. I would never have made that decision, they did. I was slowly getting to the point that I could limit the damage that was being done. I would have continued down that path. They may come back someday, it is a pattern. If they do, I will continue with how I handle that. A little stronger for the rest. It became easier to deal with when I understood that even though they are not in a hospital, they are truly mentally ill and have been their entire life. So, not really all their fault for what they do. It however IS my fault if I let that destroy me or my family. This person is family. So if you have someone close like that, I really do understand.

You CAN do it! If you don't have someone in your life that is telling you this, then join here with me. Gain strength from my struggles and my successes. Truly if I can do it, anyone can do it.

Have an awesome and healthy day!