192

192.0 Seems pretty boring. Not nearly as boring as going up or not moving!

Grand kids are here along with my daughter that has been doing all the fantastic cooking. The one yr old, Vander, is cutting a tooth and has been running a fever. The 3 yr old got really sick too with congestion, cough and fever. So she was up a lot last night crying. 10:30 PM found me heading to Walmart for sick supplies (always worse at night). So it was a very late night.  The kids are doing better today.

I did pretty good too. The tendency was still there. I mean after all, it was 11:30 pm and I was at Walmart and the candy bars where right there at the register. I also ended up going all over the store for things I have not needed to find for decades. So I passed my biggest challenge, those pink and white frosted animal cookies, in convenient displays, all over the store.  I PASSED without touching!  It was still a temptation, but easier than Monday.

Food: Two fried eggs in the morning. I left at 6 am and the blender would have woken the kids. I had several oranges and I think 3, maybe 4 bananas throughout the day. I had 4 oz of meat for lunch along with one of those bananas. Dinner was 2 whole wheat English Muffins with Turkey salami and tomatoes and other stuff, kind of a low cal personal pizza, courtesy of Sandi. (Our little Chef is leaving today, if she got enough sleep to drive.)

Exercise: None. Unless you count driving all over.....none.

Mood: Yesterday was rough. Not because of depression. Sometimes life just happens. Sometimes dealing with life is just a bit tough. Like many people, we have things going on in our life that if we had our "rathers", would not be happening. And facing those challenges with honesty and making hard decisions is very upsetting. You want the "good" to continue. If you are lucky (insert blessed) enough to live a long life, what I considered good in my 20's will not be the good I see in my later years.

I will be very open here. But I will only be open with me personally and sometimes when my life involves others, I will need to not be specific. So I am not trying to be mysterious, just trying to be fair. I am blessed that my life is entangled with others. I would not have it any other way.

Really what I am talking about is just life and the progression of life. When I was 20, I could expect a certain level of health and physical ability. I was blessed to have that. 30 was a change, 40 and so on. Made worse by my personal choices. I am glad I did not make worse choices, but not happy with myself about the ones I did make.

Well I KNOW 53 is young. In fact, 93 is looking younger every day. The fact is, things are changing and we have things to face. Add to that changes in life like retirement, insurance, housing needs and so forth.

Yesterday was one of those days. Today is a new day. In fact, Today is my beautiful sisters 50th birthday! She will not read this or Facebook. But I celebrate her joining me in this fabulous decade! I truly am loving the 50's!  If you are not here yet, just wait, you will LOVE it!!!!!