I had fun!

191.5.  I had a wonderful weekend! Full of ice cream with magic shell toppings, french toast, peanut butter sandwiches with lots of jam, donuts and all manner of garbage! So 191.5 I feel very blessed about.

What is interesting this time is the lack of guilt. I am not beating myself up. That was fun, maybe even needed, now I can get back to my life, back to eating healthy and feeling better and go on with life.

I would not want to do that for long, this was long enough. I do actually feel much worse when I eat like that. Lethargic, sleepy, upset tummy and interesting enough, totally unsatisfied. Always looking for more to eat! So I ate a ton more food, WAY more calories and wanted more...more......I said MORE!

Totally new topic:
Went to Winco this weekend (a grocery store in case you are not from this area). There was a lady in front of me trying to use some type of card. Could have been  food stamps. She was in her 60's and had a baby under a year old. So not sure if she was sitting or it was a foster child or just what the deal was, but the card was not working. They had to call the manager repeatedly.  The entire delay took maybe 5 minutes. The store was packed, would have taken more time to change lanes than just to wait.  The lady was pleasant, as was the store clerk.

I had my 4 year old granddaughter with me, we passed the time with no problem.

The story is being related because of the two nasty people behind me. Now they were only there for about 3 minutes. All they could do was be rude and unkind. They complained about everything. I felt like I was between good and evil. They even made the poor clerk put back some deli chicken they bought because it was "cold" because they had to wait "so long". In spite of their nastiness, the clerk was kind, smiling and tried hard to be helpful. It did not matter, nothing mattered to these two. They were just ugly and nasty. They had a horrible dark cloud that surrounded them and they tried to drag everyone around them into it.

I have never understood that. Never understood why people have to be so mean about things. Why you would try to ruin someone else's day. I think these people are just so negative, all they can see is bad. Even beauty is somehow dark and ugly with these folks.

Have you ever noticed that there are people with every reason in the world to have a bad attitude. Sickness, family tragedy, natural disasters. Yet a big number of these people are grateful! They are grateful for their blessings, for tiny acts of kindness, for things not being worse. They often actually work to make others, often people much more fortunate than themselves, feel better and have a better day!

I am a long way from perfect. But I hope and pray that when people think of me, they think about how I made a difference for the good. Even if that good is only a smile or something very simple like that. I hope somehow I make someones burden lighter. Help them see something good and beautiful. I hope the same for you.