New Low

186 today. My daughter beat me on our bet, but we both still won in weight loss for this month. She lost 11 pounds, I lost 8, all of that in the last week. Some of it for the third time! I love losing weight so much that I gain it back so I can lose it again!!!

Working more on an Atkins type eating program to get me going again. It gives me more energy and curbs my appetite. The biggest difference between that and the way I would like to always eat is there is less fruit and less veggies for a couple weeks. You cut down on the ones with the higher carb content like corn and peas.  It is very important to eat enough. So I eat whenever I am hungry, several times a day instead of just 3 meals.

Today is my last diet coke too. Only had two small bottles yesterday morning, the little ones. Was rewarded with a monster headache last night. Can hardly wait to see how today goes.

I have been walking, did inside exercise today.  I have been riding my horses a little and LOVING it.

The funny thing is what your mind does to you. I am really only 2 pounds less than the low I have hit so far. But I feel very skinny! Again, all in context, skinny compared to where I was.

There are several very nice looking and VERY slender ladies at work. I need to be very careful NOT to compare myself to them. I would never come out on the positive side. They have a totally different body type than I do, not to mention still weighing about 50 pounds less than I do.

The fact is, I look good, the more clothes I have on the better.... I will be healthy and I will be in good shape and I will be very happy with how I look for me. I am.

Just because I am pleased, does not mean I am done.

There was a very very long time in my life that the only thing I liked about how I looked was the size of my teeth. No I am not kidding. Then I had some needed surgery done and it changed the position of my teeth and they looked tiny, in fact for about a year, you could barely see them even when I smiled. I was devastated. The only good thing, the only thing I could look in the mirror and like was taken from me.

I was in my early 20's and was under 160 pounds. Looking back I see a very insecure and nice looking young woman.

I feel better about myself now, 30 years older, many more wrinkles and 30 pounds heavier than I felt about myself then. So it really has nothing to do with weight or what you look like.

So today, look in the mirror and find something new about yourself that you really can appreciate.

Have a great day!