So I think I am soooo tough!

OK, let's get this out of the way, 194, another eventful week.

My husband Ron has been gone a couple days and will be back today. He has been missed.

I was really quite shocked at how lost I was without him. Even just knowing he was gone left me feeling alone and sad. It was even my idea! Let him go down and help Sarah with her new baby (yes, he is a rare and fantastic man that can handle an infant!). And I would stay home and handle any Real Estate activity that may come up over the weekend. Ron was good with that too, prefers the baby over strangers.

He has only been gone two other times in our married life. I have been gone countless times and Ron always stays home and handles EVERYTHING! He only left Friday, so that is just a total of 3 days, not even three whole days.

Having lost my father at 10 years old, I have always known how fragile life is and how quick your life can change. I also tend to look at scenarios, always trying to be ready, planning 50 different options and what I would do under each one. I am a "thinker", I tend to freeze in a new situation, so the years have taught me to think and plan ahead so I can react quicker. This has really served me well multiple times.

But I missed him. I knew he would be home soon. I talked to him several times. I still missed him. My rock was not home. I depend on him for so much. He is my rock. Is my foundation, is my life. I was depressed, lonely, sad. Pitiful!

So do I know that if something happens to him that I would be OK, survive, continue? Yes. Am I, who looks at all those scenarios really shocked by how lost I felt? YES! It was only 3 days for Pete's sake!

I would survive. As would Ron. I would grieve, as would Ron.

So first to all of you who have lost your "Ron", you have my condolences, my prayers and my admiration. I knew it was tough, just got a tiny reminder of just how tough.

For all of you that still have your "Ron", take a minute and let him (her) know how much they mean to you. You will never regret all the times you told them how much they meant to you, never.